365 Days of Fun and Chillaxation – Blog#83 – Navigating Through Life’s Seemingly Impossible Moments and Finding Sunshine
I’m going through a change right now. No, not The Change (I’m only thirty-three), I’m adjusting to sharing my toddler son with his father – who lives somewhere else. Now, some may assume this is good-news because I have more time to do fun stuff, and this is true in many ways, but right now, mostly, my motherly, nurturing heart is letting go of the great family dream (for now, only for now). As for the sadness – that feeling that I’ve long been taught to run from, ignore, numb or turn into a great, exciting extravaganza – I’m discovering that when I sit with the feelings and watch them (in meditation) they dissolve into love and I feel renewed and hopeful, and even, on the really good days – blissful. And filled with gratitude. I’m also discovering, yet again, that kindness prevails, and can track-down a girl in the most unexpected of places – such as driveways and kitchens (I haven’t traveled far lately). I’m seeing that no matter how sad a girl feels, inevitably, that moment passes and yet another quietly interesting moment occurs – such as the lovely old lady next door sharing her bird-food with two well-fed and overly charming huge blonde dogs, or my flat-mate providing me with an unlimited supply of bach flower remedies and deep, understanding conversations; or the quiet moment in the afternoon, on the sun-kissed deck, just before sunset, when there’s no way I can do anything but stand still and feel the warmth of direct sunlight on my face. These moments fill me up. And as I said to a friend tonight, to my utter amazement, despite experiencing situations that I previously thought of as simply impossible to live through, I’m still breathing.
And so the good-news continues.
Today’s rating: 8/10
PS E-Book Progress Report: today I invited two famous greenies to feature in my e-book – Starhawk and David Suzuki. I’ve heard back from Starhawk’s PA, she’s away till August. Still … you don’t know if you don’t ask do you? She could feature in a future e-book … 🙂
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